I Don't Mind What Happens

Oscillation between past and future
An interesting machination
Or for me all that there is
I am dizzy and weak with the transition
I am so damaged to arrive here
I can't even take stock of why I'm here
My presence does not have a past or a future

I wonder if I close my eyes and drift
Whether I will be able to disseminate
In a waking consciousness
The difference that guided me before
I am fearful of living only in the now
What if there is no past or future
What if presence is the only permeation

I need to harden my resolve
I have arrived on the back of eagles
I have acheived my destiny
I am a spiritual warrior of balance
And I know I have been through the obstacles
It's reasonable to be in the second guess
It is my time to inhale the power