Finally At Transition

I am a creature lost in transition
The window of existence
Keeps me in the nether land

I live in the oscillation
Where is the magic
How do I get off the fly paper
I don't want to die here

Many calamities have I traversed
There have been victory dances
It's just that I have been lost a long time
I have almost forgotten
What it feels like to be full in my heart
I even question my past satiation
Was I ever full in my heart

What is this lament
What is this ache in my being
Is this love lost
Why would I have ever tried
The risk is so great
Do I want to recapitulate
Or should I live in a new dimension